+ Actually, I dun really know how to handle +
CNY is over, I didnt spend a lot on clothes this year. Didnt eat a lot also.
I spent my vday eating dim sum and celebating friend's birthday at kbox.
My vday celebration was a day at Universal Studios Singapore and a lunch at KT's Grill restaurant. Lobster risotto and scallop salad with passion fruit dressing. THere, I bought a Betty Boop cushion and a Gingerbread Man toy.
17th Feb, My bf went Vietnam early morning. I spent the next 2 days crying and having sleepless nights. Because I wasnt ready to let him go overseas with friends i have never seen before. Neither am i ready to let him go with all guys where thay can do a lot of weird things. But he still went. I dun wanna go in details. In short, I was really down. The 3rd day i reported to work and went CSI exhibition with JL. Spent the next day crying even though he should be back. He wasnt back on times.
When I had my torturous days here in SG, i didnt receive any phone calls. When my mum saw me cry, se cried with me. When my sisters saw me cry, their heart ache till they started tearing.
In short, from the day he decided to go Vietnam and till the day he was back, i was really in hell. The emotional turmoil he brought me is so bad that i had several mental breakdown. Yet i didn't blog or talked about it.
And now everything's over, i have to face a heavily Vienam influenced boyfriend. I dunno how to tell him how umcomfortable i feel listening to things related to Vietnam. I just wanna know did his leg hurt, was things expensive, things ther were nice? What about the food? But not anything about Vietnam language. He came back and kept using the word "sao" on me.
HELLO! I'M NOT ANY VIETNAM GIRL! NEITHER ARE YOU IN VIETNAM! CAN U WAKE UP UR IDEA AND SNAP BACK TO SINGAPORE? IT'S ONLY MANDARIN AND ENGLISH. AND KEEP ALL UR BAD HABITS THAT U PICKED UP BACK IN VIETNAM. AND KEEP ALL UR HOKKIEN VULGURITIES TO URSELF. IF U HAVE FORGOTTEN ALL THE LANGUAGE MANNERS BECAUSE U SAY ALL SORT OF PROFANITIES IN VIETNAM WITH YOUR FRENDS, I'M SORRY, I DUN ACCEPT ANY OF THOSE. STOP ACTING LIKE AN AH BENG!
Everytime I know how he misses life there, i recall how bad my life here was. He didnt bring me along to experience life there in Vietnam. Yet he came back and keep talking about how great it was. If i willingly let him go, i will be happy to hear anything about it. If not, I'm not at all interested in anything there. In fact I HATE THAT PLACE NOW.
REally, i hate it when he uses Vietnam language, when he misses the place, when he talk to him friends about it. Like have total no sensitivity towards me, whether i feel good listening or reading it or not. Whether do i feel sad when i think of the past 4 days. And it's been a long time since he ever readmy blog. Even when i specifically wrote him books like a personal diary specially for him, he didnt read it. So what to expect.
I'm a bit tired. I only know i have to be a good girl if i dun wanna lose him. Even though i feel that it was im who is at fault and let me down. No apologies or anything.
